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Hello!

So, it's been awhile.  I thought I was going to get back into this but honestly, it hasn't been easy.  I had a boyfriend that is bipolar and let's just say, it was a very high maintenance relationship... for almost 5 years!  Sad to say, I finally gave up.  You know how you draw a line in the sand or you say to yourself if 'this' happens, it's over.  Well... let me tell ya. 

April 2013, it's been a struggle getting there.  Breakups, other women, confusion, lots of being put down and lots of trying to learn everything I could to do to, well, keep it even keel.  What I learned, you can not keep it even keel.  It's not you that controls anything... like, ANYTHING.  Nope.  So, I learned how to cope.  And be very patient and tolerant and keep smiling and be kind.  'Managing'. 

At any rate, my line had been drawn last year in October.  I had told myself if he left me sit anywhere again (for real, it happened more than I'd like to admit) that it was over.  It's wrong to leave a woman at a bar, which is where he usually left me.

Fast forward to a lovely vacation in Vegas!  Yes!  It was awesome!!  The flights, the fun, the gambling and food and shows!  We met up with my friends Allie and her hubby, Stevie.  They flew from Alabama and met us.  They got us a free room at Ballys (cause they gamble a lot!) and I took care of most of the expenses with some of my income tax return.  It was so nice, comfortable, fun!  We found the 'secret' pizza shop!  We went for walks and talked and took a ton of pictures.  We got there on Saturday and on Tuesday morning, he was thanking me for putting up with him and telling me how much he loves me.  Nice change, him reaching out.  It was wonderful.  That afternoon, we went to the counter at Ballys to get the 'freeplay' that came with the room.  He was going to get $50 on a card to play in the slots.  Cool!  When we talked with the girl, there was some confusion as to him already having a card with them and I didn't so they gave it to me.  No bigs, he can have my card.  Although.... how did he have one and I didn't?  When I asked, he got very mad and said to let it go. I did... for a little bit.  Yeahhhhh, if you know anything about me (and most women) we don't just let things go.  So a couple of minutes later, I asked again- how did that happen, I don't get it.  Well.

EXPLOSION!!  He screamed at me in the middle of the casino floor!  Have you every heard a casino quiet?  I did.  Everyone stopped and looked.  Everyone.  I told him I don't know why he's mad, I don't know why he's yelling, can we please go up to the room and sit and talk.  He screamed he is not my dog, come, sit, come, sit.  WHAT???  I was so confused!  I saw this little old woman behind him on her seat putting her chin on her hands on the back of the seat and just smiling.  I was embarrassed!  I said please tell me what happened and he said to let the past lie and then he left.  He left.  Walked out.  A guy in the circle that gathered around us told me to let him go and get away from him. 

I went to the room because I didn't know what else to do.  I watched 3 episodes of Bones and then texted him and asked if he is okay, is he coming to dinner with Allie and Stevie and I?  He wrote back no.  ...okay....  So then I asked if he is okay and he said yes but I should pack because we are leaving early the next day and I probably won't want to pack in the morning.  Sounds good so I did.  Then I got ready to go.  Then I left.  I got downstairs and forgot the pretzels I had brought along for my friends from Philly so I ran back up to the room to get them.  Opened the door and what do I see?  Him, diving behind the wall by the bed.  I'm like- are you hiding??  He said no, it's his room too.  Yesssss, it is.  I asked if he waited till I left, was watching and he said no.  (lie, I know it)  Okay... so I ask if he wants to come along and he says no.  He is packing.  In the process, I talk with him a little and tell him it's okay, I'm sorry, I still don't know what happened but it'll work out.  He yelled at me because he couldn't find his room key.  I suggested he might have packed it and he threw everything back out and was just flipping.  He shoved it all back in and I said I was leaving to meet them and he said he's going to go out but not with us.  He started pulling his luggage and I asked what is up and he said he doesn't have a key so he wants to be sure he has his stuff.  I offered to get another one at the desk, he can have mine.  Or I'll call him when I'm done around 9 and we can meet up.  Or, he can get another one at the desk.  None of it suited.  And then he said he's not happy with me and he wants to break up.  He's done with me. He doesn't love me and he wants to be done.  Hmm.  I walked to the elevators with him and as we waited for it to get to us, I asked if he's sure, if he really wants to break up.  He said yes.  The doors opened and I said, well then, you get the next one, this one is mine and I got in, doors closed and down I went. 

I met with our friends and had a nice dinner and a bit into it, I texted him and told him what time I'd be back to the room, if he wanted to get in.  No response.  After dinner, they went to gamble and I went back to my hotel.  I got to the room and texted him telling him I was back. He responded with he is at the airport and changed his ticket and was catching the red eye out.  I asked what about the car and ride home (he was supposed to pay for gas, tolls and parking, btw).  He said he is going to take the train and I can figure it out.  Great.  So, he was leaving.  I told him since he was going to be home so much sooner, make sure he gets all of his stuff out of my house by the time I got home.  Anything he forgets, he can consider it mine.

We were over. 

The flights and ride home were not good.  I wasn't mad, just sad.  Honestly, a little relieved.  It was over.  Sad that it came to that though. 

2 days later, he came to my house.  He didn't understand why I was so upset.  Uhmmmmm he left me in another state?  He said that I travel for work all the time by myself and he knew I'd be fine.  I told him that it's because he doesn't get it that I can't be with him.  I can be his friend but not his girlfriend.

We talked a couple of times and decided to hang out once in awhile, as friends.  It was fine.  I had fun.  Then, 3 weeks later, he told me that he told his psychiatrist that we were dating. I flipped! I said we are not!  I'm over him and I'm past getting back with him.  I saw he was hurt, his face dropped and it was sad.  I felt badly and actually second guessed myself.  But then he sturdied up and said okay and left. 

I saw him a couple of times since, he owed money for breaking my brothers boat to have it fixed.  On my birthday in September, I heard he and his ex-wife were at a family function (his cousins got in touch and complained).  I don't know if they are still together but I know she has a few diagnosis herself so, to say the least, I bet it's full of drama!

Anyway, I'm dating.  One in particular but have someone else on my mind so nothing serious.  Just seeing how things go.  I'll tell you that story one day.

I wanted to get back into blogging and this is my begin again.  I want to do this NASA thing that has to do with social media (which I do social media for my work at New Horizons Harrisburg and also, my high school alumni association Red Land High School).  Hopefully, I will be one of 50 chosen to go and watch the next rocket launch on December 15 from Wallops Island, VA.  I am pressed for time right now, we are going to play volleyball tonight so this has all been rushed and I'm sorry for my crappy writing but here it is and it's a start!  So, have fun and I'll chat you up later! :)

Welcome me back?

Hi!  It's been awhile, I know!  But I miss this and I'm coming back.  I'll be checking on my old friends and maybe even make some new ones!  Dr. Ethel, Kimmie, Amber, Hip Po Pottomas, Dan.... you guys still on here??  I hope so!!!

Fathers Day

I have a step dad that is competely wonderful. He's the absolute best thing my mom has ever done for my brother and I. I don't mean that disrespectfully to my mom, it's just how it is. I love him very much and am the luckiest person to have him in my life.

Every once in awhile, though, I just kind of wish my daddy was here. He died when I was 9 and I'm okay and all. I just know he'd be great to have around and sometimes I really miss him.

I saw him!

Guess what? Last night was girls night out (the only guy, my uncle, was stuck driving so he was allowed to be along:) and we went to this little dive that I love. The bartenders are unbelievable. Seriously, they know how to make any drink you come up with. If you know a drink that you'd like me to try them out on, send it to me and I sure will! Anyway, we were there for a bit drinking our oversized sometimes free drinks when my phone rang. That woman that told me about the boy that was my first kiss called to say that he, Keith, would be coming to the pub that she was at for darts or pool or something that she plays. I told her to take a picture of him for me and she refused. So we did the only thing we could- we went to that pub. I saw him first and was like- wow, he really grew! He must be 5'10"! LOL He looked at me and kind of stopped and got this big dopey smile and you could tell he knew me but couldn't place me then he jumped (and scared me so I jumped too!) and pointed and yelled my name. It was so funny! Anyway, we hung out there the rest of the night and played darts and talked like crazy. He's working at a company where I used to work. That was interesting. He's got this adorable little boy and he showed me a bunch of pictures. He lives two streets from my aunt and uncle so they talked a lot too. It was so neat to see him! Everyone had a super time and we plan on getting together again soon.

****Update****

I had written the above on Wednesday and it's now Saturday. Here's where we're at. I'm going to a baseball game on Tuesday. I know, my first MLB game this season, wtf? Anyway- it's going to be a doozey! Boston is coming to Phila for the first Interleague games in who knows how long. I bought 2 tickets a little bit ago not knowing who I'd take but, if all else failed, I would take my best friends boyfriend Steve because he's a Boston fan and as a Yankees fan, I hate them but it'd be a good game with someone that likes baseball. I don't like taking people that aren't into it. I just don't. So, I had asked an old friend of mine that loves the Phils and he said yes. In the mean time, a customer of mine and I really hit it off and she's located in West Chester. Yes, where Steve-o from Jackass is from. Yes, where M. Night Shamalan won't go further than 150 miles from. Anyway, we planned on getting together before the game. I told her that I wished I had more tickets and I should buy a 4 pack and dump the ones I got. She talked to her boyfriend and said he's going to get the 4! YAY! Now, I'm going to the game with Krysta too! Alrighty. The two tickets that I already have, I called Steve, my best friends boyfriend and say- I'll give you guys these tickets if you drive and you have to stop to have dinner with my customer/friend for which you pay for your own meal. He said Hell yeah! We're all set. Or are we? Paul, the old friend, called yesterday to say he mouthed off to his boss and he can't leave work early so he can't go. Well, this sucks. What to do. How about- I call Keith, the first kiss guy, and ask him? He plays baseball, not softball. He's a total sports nut especially for MLB. Hmmm. Okay! I called him and guess who's going with us??? That's right, Keeder! This should be so much fun! Oh and Krysta said that now, a bunch of guys from Omni are going too. I get to meet a whole slew of my customers! One question.... I was going to wear a red strappy tank with a really cute white button down on top (Phillies colors) but it shows a bunch of cleavage. Will that be too much with all the work related guys there?? Let me know asap because I might have to shop!!!

3 weeks? Really?

So, I was over reading someone's blog, as I do very often. I know I'm not around my own blog hardly ever and I don't want to hear crap about it, okay? If you have those counter or stat minder thingies, you know that I'm lurking if not actually commenting to all of you so nuff of the stuff, iight?? Okay, I was over on this (very interesting) guys blog and I saw he added me to his list of links. First, I'm really flattered (seriously cause we all know I'm not much of a writer and how bout boring, don't forget that!) and then I see it also says it's been 3 weeks since my last post. No way! I mean, I'm busy, sure but not enough to have 3 weeks gone already! Well, I think that's pretty bad for me to not at least say how my daughter is doing, if nothing else, ya know?

Well here I am to tell ya! :)

Denna is doing fabulous in Italy! She wrote to me the day before her birthday (May 24) to say she is doing great and that her new friends in the unit were taking her out for her 19th birthday. They decided to take her away for the weekend to ... Rome! I can't imagine how amazing that would be! I'm so happy for her and dag, talk about something cool to reflect on when you're older? I love that she wasn't alone and bored and sad and missing here. Okay, not completely true, I want her to miss us a little. And she does:) She said she even misses the rugrats (bro and sis) and even if it's lipservice, I'll take it! Since then, we've gotten a real address for her and sent her one big package of mostly snack foods that she loves along with cards and visa gift cards for her birthday. I don't think she's gotten it yet because we only sent it this past week but I'm sure she'll be in touch soon and I'll let you know what's uppy!

The younger two are both doing great! Drew has finished his first lacrosse season and they went to the playoffs. They blew it there but it's a young team and it's cool that they even made it. PIAA has adopted it as being a school sponsored sport in Fall 2009 so that will be just in time for him to start 9th grade and have a few years under his belt. I think it'll be a good situation for him. He's surprised me with how tough he is. He'll take a hit like a champ and keep moving. I've decided lacross is going to bump hockey a notch in my fave sports:) Grades are good and he is still the sweet guy he has always been. Still comes to me for hugs and kisses. I know that clock is ticking, him being 13 and all, so I get as many as he lets me!

Delaney is having a tough time with her hair. That sounds ridiculous, doesn't it? The reason? She washes and brushes it but it's always working on a rats nest in the back. For weeks I couldn't figure out what the heck was going on. Finally- I got it. I think I've told you guys about the 'blossoming' story. Well, she's still so modest and worked up over her boobies growing. I've got news for her- look at the women in our family, kid. You are out of luck if you think you're going to have cute little teeny breasts. We are... well endowed. It's a blessing and a curse. No, just kidding! It's a blessing:) Anyway- she has been wearing hoodies and sweaters all winter and even now. The hood of the sweatshirt makes her hair bunch up and then it tangles and it's a mess. I tried to get her to do ponytails and piggy tails but she hates them and just wants it down. We're going to talk about getting a hair cut. I love it long and beautiful golden with light brown undertones, great color and texture, wavy with little curlies on the ends. So pretty! But we can't have this, ya know? Anyway, she is sweet and dear and not as easy going as her brother but still loves to cuddle and have me rub her back. I don't mind. I like having her close.

We are totally ready for summer! The last day of school is Tuesday. Everyone is crazy excited! We don't have a whole lot of plans but I like to run around and do stuff so I'll come up with a couple few things, don't you worry! Plus, Hippo says he's gonna visit me. What could possibly be any better? Nothin, I'm sure!!

I had a funny thing happen recently. A woman I barely know was telling me about a dilemma she is having with not two but THREE men. Three. Anyway- she was saying how great they all are and how ever will she choose? LOL! I don't know ONE really great guy around here so how the heck does she find THREE? Besides the point. So, she tells me about one guy and I don't know him at all. The next one I know and he is actually a friend of mine. All good. Then she says the last guys name and I'm like- who? You're kidding. Where does he live? And guess what? The last guy was my boyfriend 30 years ago! Not like I was allowed to actually have a bf then but, every Friday night, I went to Hagys Fountainbleu Roller Skating Rink. It was THE place, trust me! So, every week, I would see this boy, Keith, and we would skate together for couples and then we'd each go back to skating with our separate group of friends and he was my bf. Uh huh. Big time cool especially since I was in 6th grade but he was in 9th! I was the sh*t with my high school bf that I never saw or spoke with any other time through the week, let me tell you! At the end of the school year, I was heading to my grandparents for a few months and he kissed me goodbye!! Just as we were leaving the rink, he gave me this big hug and laid one on me. A real one, too. Of the French sort. My mom was maaaad! But I was totally swept away. I heard about him a couple of times when I was in high school (he was a baseball star and his legend remained for many years) and even as an adult I heard his name twice but never ran into him or knew what he was up to. Just a part of my history that was history.

Anywho! She told me all about him and from what she says, he's got a really young child and she's actually not into that much. He's 44 now and she's 49 and his kid is 15 months so that is prob going to be a deal breaker for her. In the mean time, though, she is going to get a picture for me to see what he looks like as a grown up. I can't wait! He was cute as heck when we were younguns. I know, a LOT can happen in 30 years, how bout it? Still, it'll be fun just to see!

Can you hear that? Faintly, off in a distance....
If I can't have you, I don't want nobody baby, if I can't have you, uhhhh huh, no.....

Safe.

Denna Boo called and left me a message today at 1:27 pm. She said Mom, Mommy (aww!) We got here at 11:30 and I haven't done much but sit in a car but it's really really pretty and I'll call you from a better phone in a day or two. I love you.

Not much but I know she's safe and she sounded really happy. Through my tears, so am I!

Have a great night!
dawn